Unexpected

I was very shocked to find out today that my Uncle Don had passed away. I was totally surprised when my dad told me. I mean, how? I was just with him a couple of weeks ago, laughing and having a good time. And now he is gone? I couldn't believe it. I still don't think I do.
Tonight was VBS. I found about this about 45 minutes before we left. I tryed to keep on a "happy attitude" so that I would set a good example for the little kids. It seemed too easy for me, and that made me upset. I love him very much, yet I can't cry. I mean I cried when Dad told us, but the tears aren't coming back, and that makes me feel guilty. I am aching inside though.
We visited my grandma, great-aunt Ruthie, and Uncle John tonight after VBS. I cannot even imagine the pain that she must be expiriencing. She is a tough woman who seems to hide her pain, but I can tell that she was absolutlly heart broken through her eyes. It was a very quiet visit. I don't think that any of us has let it sink in yet. It just doesn't seem possible. But it is.
My grandfather passed away a month ago Wednesday, and now Uncle Don? I won't question God's plan, though. It is all in His hands, he knows exactly what He is doing. His timing is perfect. And for that, I love Him. I have Him to turn to and know that He has all the answers. I do not know what I would do without Him. Well, I'd be an absolute mess.
Dad says that he has hope. When he would question Uncle Don about his salvation, he could tell my dad the time he did it and everything. That is good to know. I have hope that I will see him in Heaven one day. Then I can tell him how much I love him. You can never say that enough.
Throughout these times when I have lost a loved one I have learned something: Spend as much time with your family and friends as possible. You never know when they won't be around anymore. And take every oppurtunity that is given to you to witness to them. I mean, I wish so bad that I could have spent more time with my grandfather than I did. I wish I could have seen Uncle Don more than I did. Both of their deaths were unexpected to me. So take advantage of the precious times you share together and hold on to them. Don't hold a grudge against anybody. Tell them that you love them constantly.

I Y you Uncle Don

...and with your final heart beat

kiss the world goodbye

and go in peace and laugh on Glory's side

and fly to Jesus...and live.